D A R O S U L A K A U R I

PROJECTS: "I was dreaming when I wrote this". My three month diary of a pandemic

When I first went outside in the midst of a pandemic, I realized how surreal the outside world has become to me. People with masks in public transportation, on the streets, I was feeling chaos and confusion. Waiting for the life that I once had to come back. I would never imagine the closest person to our family would pass away during the time of pandemic.  

It seemed as if my childhood strongest memories died with her. It was not possible to have a proper funeral amidst the Covid-19 crisis. We were the only ones at the cemetery, people with masks; My parents, aunt and the gravediggers.  

A dark cloud was following me everywhere I went. It was hard to express what I felt, a new emotion, different from what I felt before. It was like a strange dream, inevitable to dream. As if I was standing in the middle of the field surrounded by forests, that had trees so tight together that I could not get in, to get out. 

  • At 7:30 a.m. my son woke me up, I was happy to see his smiling face. We got up and I remembered; I felt butterflies in my stomach, but not in a romantic way. Wash your hands…death toll rises…My thoughts about the future became fuzzy and chaotic.
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  • Looking at my laundry, thinking when will wear it again in a public space.
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  • Thea, 38 years old, a doctor. My next door neighbor and childhood friend. She is planning to volunteer for Covid-19 patients if there will be an urgent need for doctors.
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  • My uniform when I leave the house: gloves and mask.
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  • I was standing in the balcony thinking of the ambiguous situation that  I was in, looking at the one of our favorite plant that died recently.
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  • During the quarantine the streets were empty, but I could spot people walking around in some places. My mind was trying hard to accept the new reality.
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  • I drove outside at night to photograph during the quarantine. It was 10 p.m. but felt like 5 a.m. The streets were empty and people with face masks appeared and disappeared in empty streets.
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  • My 7-year-old niece, Nisime, in her hide out place, my parents closet. She is my muse during the quarantine days.
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  • During the epidemic, when we were told by the government to stay home, I drove outside to see how isolated the streets have become. But, the people with masks in the public transportation really caught my eye, I realized then how surreal the outside world has become to me.
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  • I would never imagine a close person to our family would pass away during the pandemic.  It was emotional day. We were the only ones there, us, people with masks; My parents, my aunt and the grave diggers.  It was not possible to have a proper funeral amidst the Covid-19 crisis.  What a bad time to die, but still the weather was beautiful and it was quiet and isolated.
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  • Our Georgian tradition, raising a glass of wine, saying a prayer, drinking the half of the glass and pouring the rest on the grave.  I would never imagine a close person to our family would pass away during the epidemic.
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  • On a once a very busy street that now was quiet and isolated, stood trees that I have not noticed before.
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  • My aunt is a first grade teacher. She is old school when it comes to technology, but she managed to learn really fast. Getting use to the virtual world, there is no other way around it in the midst of Covid-19 crisis. She has online classes from her bedroom via ZOOM everyday with 15-20 of her students. And - I love her.
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  • Prime minister asking the worshippers to stay home on an Easter night and those who go to maintain social distancing at the church. My fathers icons on the background.
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  • Shoppers in front of the market standing in line by keeping a distance; a strategy of fighting the virus spread. The new form of everyday life, that maybe here to stay for a long time. After shopping for food I imagined that there was a new invention of masks, with a round shape shield. I drew my imagination, trying to bring it to life.
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  • In front of the parliament. A local Georgian with flowers paying tribute to the 21 victims of the April 9 tragedy. My mom and dad were also present during the anti-soviet demonstration 31 years ago. Memorial looks sad during the crisis, but few people still came with masks.
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  • I can't cook.
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  • Mom mom at her studio, working. Now that it's lockdown she finds more time to work.
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  • Eke, my one-year-old  son. During the peak of the pandemic,  we set aside park playgrounds and all outside play activities.  I wonder how he will remember this time when he grows up.
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  • I was asked to make a self portrait during the quarantine for an art project,  I rarely make self portraits, but I really wanted to express the condition I was in. Chaos in the world while I stand from home and observe. I used my father's painting of eyes, which he gave me on my birthday.
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  • Easter night. Before the pandemic, me and my family always got together to celebrate one of the most important holidays of Georgia.
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  • We hung this kind of rope when we were kids, sending each other bff letters.  We are friends and neighbors all our lives. Yesterday we restored the rope. Since we have to keep social distance during the epidemic, we sent each other eggs , paska, and candles to celebrate Easter night. I had to whisper, to not wake my son. PRESS THIS FOR VIDEO
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  • I lost count how many days we are at home. The government predicts the virus will start spreading within the community. 80% will get infected, but the symptoms will be almost invisible. I photograph the trees outside my house, some I have not noticed before the pandemic.
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  • Aunt visiting during a lockdown, walking all the way from home just to see Eke.
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  • My book shelf. My dad's painting, my grandparents' books from the Soviet times, book on Sumo wrestling, brought by my husband during his visit in Japan, cook book, gloves, face mask and hand sanitizer. I thought it was an interesting combination of new and old world intersecting.
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  • My first ever virtual birthday. My husband brought the cake in at 12:00 a.m. that my friend and neighbor baked for my surprise party, while my friends sang happy birthday to me via fb messenger. We laughed and made jokes about how horrible the cake tasted, until connection got lost.
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  • Transportation is forbidden. My mom and aunt walked all the way from home to see my on my birthday during the lockdown.
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  • Self portrait at home in my living room during quarantine.  I always got interrogated byt the painting that my father drew years ago,. Growing up, as a kid, I was frightened and  enchanted by the drawing.
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  • I took a drive in Mukhiani district to photograph and imagined that there was a new invention of masks, with a round shape shield. I drew my imagination on the photograph, trying to bring it to life.
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  • A tree , a family tree. It had to be cut, because it was damaging our house. The picture reminds me of a sketch the my grandfather drew of a tree with names of every family member representing our family roots.
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  • My sister and nephew entertaining us during quarantine.
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  • Adjusting to the new way of life, you can spot people wearing masks, even if the streets are empty.
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  • My friend and neighbor. Rain. Fresh air. Midnight. Quarantine. 2 month and 2 weeks of rediscovery. Waiting for the life that once was to come back.
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  • My son hiding.
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  • A bus with passengers leaving to the Kakheti region. During the restrictions on entering and leaving the city.  Police set up checkpoints on roads into Tbilisi, to screen the citizens for coronavirus.
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  • My sister was in labor when we held a small funeral for our family member, who passed away during the pandemic. I drove my sister  to the cemetery one week after, so she could say goodbye.
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  • During the restrictions on entering and leaving the city.  Police set up checkpoints on roads into Tbilisi, to screen the citizens for coronavirus.
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  • It is amazing how nature has awoken during the pandemic, resting from us, humankind.
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  • My 7-year-old niece, Nisime, relaxing after her Zoom class in quarantine. I wonder how she will remember the pandemic when she grows up, her first school year that continued with Zoom classes, lockdown and restrictions.
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  • Hahnemuhle Photo Rag 24’’x 36’’ 90/60 cm Year of printing: 2020Edition 1/10 (+2AP)
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  •  It felt as nothing had happened, the virus never existed. The parks were full and people were outside without masks, enjoying the freedom after lockdown.
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  • House cleaning day, Kote, 50 years old. His is kurdish and the memebr of our family, my father baptized him. He is the only one allowed in our house during the peak of the pandemic.
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  • Mancho, she is cashier in a small shop right next to our house. I know her for many years. She is working non stop, putting her life in danger to support her family. I admire her.
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  • Dots painted on the pavement of the church to maintain social distancing during prayer in the midst of Covid-19 crisis. A pigeon passed while I was making a video of the people standing still, which symbolized how nature rested from human kind.
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  • The new form of everyday life on Marjanishvili street, captured while driving with random music from the public radio playing in the background.
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  • The yard has been our playground.
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  • My son growing up during the pandemic.
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  • My newphew, born during the peak of the pandemic.
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  • I flashed my camera to a stranger from my car, while my mom was driving me around during the quarantine.
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  • I wonder how my son will rememeber this time?
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  • I started to observe nature, just like I did when I was a kid.
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  • My godmother, Dr. Maia Sulakvelidze, the gold of our family. She treated 50 Covid-19 patients. Today was a special day, she discharged her last patient.
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  • Class photo, 2020.
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  • It seems like we are all at home, waiting for that {quote}normal{quote} to return.
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  • My work space has been everywhere lightly. I have been working on every table, cough, chair, whenever and wherever I can find time, I unload my silver bag.
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  • My son and nature meeting up close for the very first time.
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  • Moab Lasal Photo Matte 235 Paper1100/1100 cmYear of printing: 2020Edition 1/5 (+2AP)
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  • Portrait of Mari Bekauri, Georgian writer, my new acquaintance during the crazy times.
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  • My niece in her new hide-out place.
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  • I photographed rain at night in a village I grew up in when I was a child. I drove my son here to escape from the city during a pandemic to get closer to nature.
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  • Moab Lasal Photo Matte 235 Paper1100/1100 cmYear of printing: 2020Edition 1/5 (+2AP)
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  • In a a {quote}far away{quote} land, away from pandemia and masks.
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  • Me and my son growing up.
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